Cup of Coffee and It Is 98 Degrees...

It's Friday afternoon and I'm home ... for the weekend ... yea, no work.  This week I thought and voiced my concerns over how things seemed to be going.  Everyone was having a bad week ... grumpy, grumpier and grumpiest seemed to all be in one place at once.  The Federal Building.  It was not just my agency but every time I got on an elevator someone was saying ... Oh, is it Friday yet? ... Oh, I'm so glad it's Friday?  .... What a week!!!  Well I gotta tell you ... it's been a week.  I said I wasn't going to complain when I got to go back to work and I tried not to but REALLY!  BUT now ... it's Friday, I'm home and of all things having a cup of coffee and it's 98 degree on my patio IN the SHADE.  Coffee sounded good so I loaded up the Keurig with my favorite blend and pushed the button.  Here I sit finally getting to write and have a cup of coffee with Channel 5 in the background filling me in on the Olympics.


I know I have been so bad about not blogging this week. In September 2011, when I started this blog, I forever wanted to Praise my Lord and pray that I could point others to my Lord and Saviour with all the little and big  issues of life thrown in for good measure. Somehow this past week somewhere along the way, I, like the weather here in Texas, have been dry lately~ like a juice box sucked in with no air left inside. I think all the life has been sucked right out of me. Do you ever feel like that?

I follow several blogs myself and on one of them this morning one posted exacting how I have been feeling ...  here's a snippet from her posting  ... I heard a message this morning and the teacher said sometimes God test His people to see if they are what they say they are. You know like when you go buy a new sofa and you sit on it and try it out. Sometimes it is easy when hard times come one at a time~ well not easy~ but do-able. Yet~ when trials and tests come right after another you can't do anything but realize that without God you are nothing. I am confessing~ I am nothing without God. I repeat what she said ... I am absolutely nothing without God.  When I lose communication with Him, I'm lost in every way.  I have not liked this feeling this week at all.  I have cried out and I haven't heard anything.  As I continued listening ... there He was in the midst of a bad evening one day this week.  Remember my recent post when I included the July 17 devotional ... Come walk with me for a while.  I guess somewhere along the path this week, we got separated and I can assure you that God didn't leave the path ... I did.  I allowed the busyness, grumpers, conference calls, countless emails drag me down the wrong path.  Hearing His words again at bedtime Wednesday night ... Come walk with me for a while ... I knew I had found my way back to where I needed to be.

I had allowed the busyness of my world to get in the way of where He wants me to be.  When all the meetings, conferences, grumps and gripes entered this week, I stepped off the path with my awesome Lord.  I fell in behind the 'busyness' ... big mistake.  I am writing today to say that I am thankful that I didn't get far from the path, realized what I had done and got back on the right path again.

I mentioned recently I was going to write a post titled ... There Will Come a Day ... I decided I am going to include it in this post.  There is a song sung by Jeremy Camp titled There Will Come A Day which is beautiful ... here's a link to listen ... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8TipLsmZgjI   This song is about a different 'day' than what I am speaking about BUT ... the day in the song will be a glorious day.

Today I am writing about the 'day' ... a day when I started my breast cancer journey, I wasn't sure if it would ever come.  The 'day' and I'm not sure if it's really a day or week or month ... but there comes a day (or time)  that a person who has had cancer and been through treatments doesn't want the cancer and treatments to define them anymore.  I do not want to be - Gena with cancer - you know what I want?  I want to be - Gena, the vivacious, love of life, hyper Type A personality, make you laugh, make you cry (I hope not), fun loving - Gena.  I don't want to be labeled with cancer anymore.  I want to move on ... I want to be 'normal' however and whatever  my new normal will be ... I want that.  I am certainly not in denial about the cancer ... I mean after all I live with all that has gone on in my life for the last nine months ...  and it is a well known fact that cancer invaded my body.  Since October 18, 2011, I have held on to the words my Oncologist told me after my surgery  ... We consider you cancer free after your surgery.   Praise the Lord.

 I could never have gotten through these nine months without all my family and friends, old and new, supporting me every step of the way.  I am not sure I could have gotten through the months without my blog ... my outlet ... writing my blog allowed me to type the words on the screen ... let me spill my guts ... let me cry while I wrote ... let me laugh while I wrote.  I am so blessed that so many have read my blog over the last nine months ... I am truly humbled.  As of today, there have been 13,350 hits on my blog ... Praise the Lord.  It is truly my prayer that everyone who has read this blog knows that I have a love for the Lord like no other love.  I praise His name ... in the good and the not so good and in the down right bad times.  I want everyone to know Him.

So ... there you have it ... my 'day' has come ... my blog will take a different path now.  I know God has a plan for me and I pray that He opens many more doors for me to share my cancer journey but most of all that I will be able to share His love for me and you.  So once again, as I typed these words ... thanking all of you - I cried.  You mean more to me than my words can ever express.

Let me tell you now about my sister and my shopping trip last weekend.  My sister has lost over 30 pounds on Weight Watchers and needed new clothes ... yes, here she is ... (NOTE:  If I come up missing, call the police because she's probably going to kill me... <laughing>)  and by the way ... my sister is my hero.  She's awesome ... she's smart ... she has walked every step of this journey with me and I know has felt my pain deep in her soul.  She makes me laugh, she aggrivates me, she's OCD and works hard.  She's the friend YOU want to have.  The picture below was taken at Penney's after our first stop at Kohl's ... read on!

Our first stop was at our local Kohl's.  She pulled a pair of khaki capris out of the rack and showed me and I was appalled ... they had been worn ... literally it looked like someone had worn them and returned them.  Of course I couldn't let it go ... I was like REALLY!  Check them out for yourself below and please let me know what you think ... worn or not?  These are so worn ... I could not believe it.  Looking at these pictures reminds me again about how I could NOT believe it.  I guess, buy them, tuck the tag in the waste band, WEAR THEM and then take them back.  R-E-A-L-L-Y ???

You know when life is getting back to normal because I'm ready to get out to the antique shops/malls, etc.  I don't have any money to buy much (if anything), but oh boy, how I do like to look.  Last Sunday afternoon, my sister and I got our happy hour Sonic half and half ice tea and headed to the new antique store here in North Richland Hills.  There he was ... in a corner on a shelf with some of his chicken friends, all puffed out with his wings around the salt and pepper shakers ... I couldn't resist ... He said ... BUY ME, BUY ME, I will look good in your kitchen/dining area.  So I made a small purchase.... and here he is ..

The heat is ferocious as you all know if you live here in Texas.  I think I could live in a cooler temperature but I've been in Texas my entire 56 years and I ain't going anywhere now.  <smile>  I love my Texas.

So today I leave you with a faith filled heart and a praise on my lips for the many many people and opportunities that God has brought into my life during my cancer journey.  I will continue to update you on the doctor appointments ahead, as well as ... always have prayer requests for the many who have been and/or will be diagnosed with this dreadful disease and other dreadful diseases.

Hebrews 11:1 (KJV)  Now faith is the things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.  


Blessed and praying blessings for you today.  


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