Shower or Sprinkle ???

Saturday morning was spent cleaning the house.  I am happy to report that between Alicia and I, everything got swept, vacummed, and dusted.  Praise the Lord

Yesterday afternoon some of Bonnie's friends and family gave her and Buddy a 'sprinkle' for the new baby.  A sprinkle is a mild version of a shower ... great idea.  Long time good friends, Bruce and Greta, were there and we got to catch up.  There was a cook-out and it was lots of fun.  The grand babies got to play in the water and they loved it.  I, of course, had to take some video and, of course, have to share with you all.  I cannot wait for grand baby number 3 to get here.

Praises:
*  The awesomeness of being a Grammy.
*  Seeing good friends and getting to catch up yesterday.
*  Getting to paint my toe nails again.  It's been eight months.  Medical reasons for not.
*  Watching my garden grow.
*  My new sprinkler system that I devised.  <smile>
*  So many more things that I am thankful for.

Prayer Requests:
*  Long time friend who has been diagnosed with early state invasive ductal carcinoma.  She will have a lumpectomy on Thursday and if there is no lymph node invasion, she will only have to take radiation.
*  My survivor sister, Wendi T. who continues to struggle with her final rounds of Taxol chemo.
*  My friend, Patti, as she continues to heal from a stomach issue she has had.
*  I have developed a rash in the top part of my radiation area.  It itches.  I pray this nothing so that I can get finished with the radiation treatments on time ... before my grandbaby #3 is born.
*  All those diagnosed with a dreadful disease.

Blessed and praying many blessings for you today.
gkmorrison12@gmail.com

Bald and Bold ... sort of!

Bald women are brave,

Brave bald women have courage,

Courageous brave bald women ...

Are given their strength by God.

Amen.

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A funny story ... I went outside Wednesday afternoon to water the garden.  I believe that every gnat that was within miles decided to visit my backyard that afternoon just so they could buzz by my ears and sting them.  I shooshed more gnats away that day than ever and by the time I got in the house, my ears were blazing red and hot from all the stinging and shooshing.  <smile>

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I never in a million years thought I would ever be bald.  Bald happened to other women ... you know the one's that got breast cancer and had to take chemo.  My heart was always with those women.  Then one day ... I was bald.  Being bald for the most part (once I got accustomed to it) hasn't bothered me.  It has actually been a blessing in so many ways.  Those mornings I got up after a round of chemo and didn't feel like doing anything ... I didn't have to worry about my hair.  If I get cold, I put on a cap ... if I get hot, I take it off.  Being a bald woman has emotional ties to it no matter how you look at it, however, it is part of the chemo process and my hair will grow back.

Let me tell you how a bald woman feels and we do have feelings, feelings that run really deep.  I pray you never discount that fact when you see a bald woman.  Some women never get accustomed to being bald.  I had a survivor sister who told me that she could NOT look at herself in the mirror when she was bald.  She could not stand the fact that she had no hair.  I, personally, worked through the heart ache of losing my hair before I lost my hair.  I found a comfortable place  with my baldness and I feel I have a good attitude about it, however, that does not take the sting away when a person says catty remarks about my bald head.  

I walked in to a funeral this week and an acquaintance of mine threw up their arms and said, "Oh Gena, the glare is blinding me."  Very inappropriate, very hurtful and not funny at all.  I was taken aback actually and it really did hurt.  Let me make a suggestion to those who are reading this who have hair, if you do not know what to say to someone like me who is bald due to chemo, just do not say anything at all.  Talk to the person just like you would if they had hair.  My heart, my mind, my soul hasn't changed one bit only my appearance and that is temporary.

Dear Survivor Sisters ...  If you haven't lost your hair, most likely you will ... if you have lost your hair and are currently bald ... Remember, God gave us a special light that shines from our sweet bald heads that matches the halo our Angel has so she is able to find us easily.  God loves us just the way we are ... He doesn't care that we do not have hair and He would never want us hurt because of someone saying something inappropriate.  We have courage that not everyone has and He gave it to us.  Praise Him.

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I am currently going through another side effect of the chemo ... remember chemo does not immediately leave your body like so many think.  Remember in earlier posts how I mentioned that so many people thought just because I was finished 'taking' chemo, that I would go back to being the get up and go person I was before ... yes, I am much better now that chemo is finished but the side affects still happen.  For a couple of weeks now, I have been experiencing some pretty severe pain in my hips ... bones and muscle.  At first I thought I had just used some muscles in the Race for the Cure that I had not used in a while and the pain would stop.  It hasn't.  When I sit for short or long periods of time and get up, my hips hurt so bad it almost doubles me over.  To walk hurts, to lay in bed on my sides hurts.  I looked up the side affects once again of the Taxotere chemo drug and this is a side effect that can happen 1 to 3 months after finishing chemo.  I tell you that Taxotere is a trouble maker.  <smile>  I decided today I might should call The Center to ensure that this was really what was going on and it is. It's perfectly normal ... for a chemo patient.  I ask my dear sweet Helena, nurse practitioner, if I could take Advil and she said yes because I was no longer taking chemo.  Tonight before bed, I will take two Advil and see if that helps the terrible pain in my hips that wakes me every night.  Praise the Lord that this is normal and that it will end.

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I hope your week went well and that you have a wonderful weekend.  I was planning to go fishing tomorrow at Lake Bridgeport but decided I better wait until I am finished with the antibiotics and get the stuffiness completely eliminated ... plus with my hips hurting so bad, I just didn't want to try it right now.

I am blessed tonight.  God has been so good to me ... it's amazing how He opens your eyes when you allow Him to do so.  Praising Him tremendously ...

Blessings sweet family and friends.


gkmorrison12@gmail.com

Radiation and Garden Update ... and more

Radiation is going well this week ... today was my 10 treatment and that means there are only 23 remaining treatments.  The radiation ends May 29 and my new grand baby is scheduled to be delivered May 30.  God is so good.  So now a  little more about my radiation treatments.  Have you ever heard a trainer tell someone they are training  ... Feel The Burn ... ?   I have a new take on that saying ... I am beginning to FEEL THE BURN.  The left side of my chest and under my left arm is where my radiation is applied.  Dr. C told me there would be a build up affect of the radiation and after about two weeks, I would begin feeling the results.  Well I am!  It's not bad though ... primarily tender.  I think I am more concerned with the fatigue the radiation can cause because that means my energy level drops and that does not make me happy because I like to have my energy.  I am not going to let it get me down though ... I made it through chemo, I can make it through radiation.

My garden is growing and growing.  I don't remember if I reported that I have cucumbers.  Little baby cucumbers.  They are funny looking when they start growing, matter of fact I didn't know that it was a cucumber, I thought it was part of the vine.  <smile>  ... well I've never grown cucumbers before.  My tomato plants are full of tomatoes.  I'm watching all my little darlings close because when they get a hint of red on them, I'm picking them to put in the kitchen window to ripen ... picking them to beat the mockingbirds from pecking them and ruining them for the rest of us.  <smile>  I love my birds but we may have to have a 'come to Jesus' meeting if they start pecking my tomatoes.  I have to admit that I have become very protective of my little garden.

I am happy to report that work is going well.  Might I add that by the end of the week, I'm exhausted.  I want to start walking again on a regular basis ... I need to start walking again ... it helps my energy level.  Note to self ... get up and get away from your desk and go walk.

One day at lunch I was able to listen to Pastor Robert Morris' sermon titled --- Ten Deadly Sins (with our mouth). If you have 30 minutes, take a listen ... http://gatewaypeople.com/sermons  God can only bless us if our mouths line up with His word.

I am having dinner with two sweet retired NWS friends tonight.  I can't wait. It will be good fellowship and food.

Closing today with a happy thankful heart.  In the past two days, God has provided me with more opportunities to share my journey about Him and my breast cancer journey.  My prayer is that people reading this blog, gain strength, comfort, knowledge and most of all that they know that they do not have to walk their journey alone.  God will walk with them just like He walks with me ... every day and every night ... through all my treatments, appointments, reports ... all of it ... He is with me.

Praises:
*  The love of my God.  No matter my circumstance, He never leaves me.
*  Opportunities provided this week to share my blog.
*  Feeling good.
*  Only 23 radiation treatments remaining.
*  Positive attitude.
*  Hearing from my survivor sisters this.  Lunch on Friday with one of them.
*  My new grand baby will be here before we know it.
*  So so much more.

Prayer Request:
*  One of my survivor sisters is still having some issues with her chemo.  Please pray for W. T.
*  Another survivor sister is taking early rounds of chemo.  Please pray for W. L.
*  Unspoken prayer request.  God knows.
*  Anyone recently diagnosed with breast cancer or another life changing disease.

Blessings!

gkmorrison12@gmail.com

Harboring vs Letting It Go !!!

Webster defines the word 1) 'harbor' (noun) a place of security and comfort; and 2) 'harbor' (verb)  a part of a body of water protected and deep enough to furnish anchorage.  Today I want to talk about the noun of 'harbor'.  Something that has weighed heavy on my mind since my diagnosis is how for many years and for whatever reason, I harbored ill feelings towards people who had hurt me or said something I didn't like or want to hear.  And now when I look at the definition of the word harbor as a noun, that means a place of security and comfort,  I ask myself, how in the world can harboring ill feelings towards someone mean a place of security and comfort?  Does it mean that if I do not let that person or persons who hurt me back in to my life that I have found security and comfort?  Has it made me feel better to continue holding a grudge because one time someone hurt me by what they said or didn't say, what they did or didn't do, excluded me from a function, etc?   Sometimes people do not know they have hurt us and yes, there are times that people do know they have but holding grudges only allows the devil to slip in and whisper in your ear ... 'remember when so and so said this or so and so did that ... remember how it made you feel'?  I say ... slap the devil off your shoulder and let it go.  The longer we hold a grudge, the harder it is to let it go.  

I have learned by acknowledging the issue, I have a choice to make ...  move forward or stay there harboring those ill feelings.  I have tried communicating with the person(s) whom I have been in conflict with and to understand the other persons point of view.  This didn't mean I had to agree with them but trying never hurts.  In the long run, does an apology make it better?  Aren't we just wanting the person to acknowledge our hurt feelings?  Often times I have discovered that the person I was in conflict with had moved on and never thought twice about the issue.  Holding on to a grudge, drains you physically and emotionally.  Rehashing the incident, I have found keeps the embers burning and those old hurt feelings resurface and the devil gets back up on my shoulder and whispers in my ear so that I continue to live the hurt over and over again.  Forgiveness sometimes is a hard thing to do especially if you have been deeply hurt but I believe that it is truly the only way to let go and have peace.

My story ....

I have a long time friend, a person I have known most of my life.  We started elementary school together and went all the way through graduation of high school and the years here after.  We  stayed in contact but were not shopping buddies or anything ... friends.   After my breast cancer diagnosis, I never heard from my friend.  Nothing!  Months later, I got a text message from this person that said something like ... I haven't bothered you through your whole ordeal but wanted you to know I have prayed for you.  Quite frankly I was hurt because I didn't know about your surgery until the day of.  My response was ...  REALLY?   I have been fighting for my life and you were HURT because you didn't know about my surgery?  Needless to say, I thought this was about the most selfish thing I had ever heard and I was upset and mad.  Oh you know what I'm talking about ... you have probably at one time or another had a similar reaction to something someone has said to you.  Side Note - When you are diagnosed with breast cancer, you really only want your immediate family to be there to talk to at the time.  Perhaps this person did not know that.  After much thought, I ask myself ... why am I harboring these ill feelings?  This person is a longtime friend and a friend of my family for many years.  So recently I let it go.  Does it take the sting away from what was said ... No ... but there's always bee balm to help that sting.  How can I not forgive when Jesus forgave me?  I do not have the energy to even 'want' to harbor ill feelings toward someone much less have the energy to 'do' it.  I know this person realized that perhaps what they said was hurtful and I know that they would not intentionally hurt me.  Praise the Lord that He alone has brought me to the place that I can forgive when someone upsets my little apple cart.  I do not like having ill feelings toward someone, it drags me down.  

So today ... I say if you are harboring ill feelings toward someone, let it go.  Bring back the peace and joy in your life.  Get rid of the emotional and physical strain on your health ... yes, these types of things bring your health down.  Knock that trouble making devil off your shoulder, step on him,  and move forward.  

I write with love and compassion as I walk the human walk just like you.  I am not exempt from hurt and pain but I can chose a different path on my life journey ... the path to 'let it go' in order to find the joy God intends for me to have.  I'm blessed and I know it.  God has taught me so much while on this journey ... I'm so thankful.

Matthew 6:14-15  "For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But, if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins."

  

Blessings!  

gkmorrison12@gmail.com

I know ...

... My Redeemer Lives.  This song is great and lifting my spirits.  If you have never heard it ... click the following link:   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9p4G2GbPYQA    You may have to get through the ads but it is worth the wait.

I took today off for the antibiotics to have 72 hours of getting in my system.  If bronchitis and sinus infection were not enough, I took the dog outside and some pollen from some where got going in the right side of my nose and my right eye ... runny nose and watery eye *not both eyes *  Praise the Lord.  Sometimes I feel that my spirit is being tested but I refuse to fail the test.  I know that what ever I am going through right now ... there are others going through much worse so I will not park on my feelings but chose to pray for others.

I went to radiation this morning and that went well.  It was my day to see Dr. C. and once again he assured me that in a week or so my skin would begin showing the signs of the radiation with the burn.  I guess they truly just want you to be prepared.  With God's help, I have battled the chemo dragons and I know with His continued love, I can battle the radiation dragons also.

Job 19:25-26 ... I know that my redeemer lives, and in the end He will stand on the earth.  And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh, I will see God.

Praises:
*  Knowing that I will feel better.
*  Knowing there are people praying for me and others.
*  Knowing that My Redeemer Lives.

Prayer Request:
*  Long time friends have lost a family member.
*  My survivor sisters ... W. L --- W. T --- L. S. --- S. F.  ... who are currently all going through breast cancer treatments.
*  Anyone ... who today will be diagnosed with breast cancer or some other dreadful disease.

Thank you for all your prayers ... not for just me but all that I add to my blog.  Prayer is such a powerful thing.

Blessed !!!

gkmorrison12@gmail.com

Sunday Morning ...

Psalm 16:8  I keep my eyes always on the Lord.  With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.  

Ms. Cough had company late yesterday afternoon.  Mr. Fever came to see her.  He didn't even knock, he just came on in without a welcome.  He got to 100.7 before I could bat an eye so I decided to show him. I called The Center to get advice/antibiotics whatever I needed to boot him and Ms. Cough both out the door.  Helena, Oncologist Nurse Practitioner, called me in 10 days of Levaquin (antibiotics) and the cough pills that I take.  I know I have a sinus infection and bronchitis.  When you've had the same thing repeatedly in the spring and sometimes in the fall for years, you learn your body well.  This morning my fever was 99.7 when I got up but I believe I've extinguished it with a Tylenol for now.  When I spoke to Helena yesterday, I ask her if I could take antibiotics while taking radiation ... I was thinking the sunburn affect could get worse since they always tell you to stay out of the sun when taking antibiotics ... she told me yes, you can take antibiotics while taking radiation.  Pray that my visitors go away soon.  I do not want to feel bad ... I want to feel good and back to a somewhat normal life.

I didn't really do much of anything yesterday.  I changed the sheets on my bed, washed the sheets and a load of towels.  I had lunch with my friend, Peggy.  We met at Panera Bread and enjoyed a wonderful salad and great visit.  We had not seen each other since back before I was diagnosed.  She was headed to meet up with some people and later in the evening heading downtown to the Main St. Arts Fest.

Above:  My sweet friend, Peggy.

After lunch I came home and Alicia had been to visit the cupcake place up the street from us.  Oh my goodness ... she bought six cupcakes and had gotten me a dreamsicle cupcake.  It was divine ... along with the chocolate Almond Joy cupcake that I had after I ate dinner last night.  There are two cupcakes left and I don't know what they are but beware ... I may end up eating them both.  <smile>

Praises:
*  The sweetest medical team that a girl could have.  They continue to take such good care of me.
*  Madelyn, my grand daughter, has two more teeth.  She's only had four front teeth forever.  The other night, Alicia found the two in the back on the top.  Praise the Lord.
*  My friends, Jeff and Kim, who always check on me and ask if they can do anything ... like mow my yard.  Is that not just the sweetest?  I may take them up on it soon as the front yard is getting rather unruly after the rains.
*  I know My Lord is taking care of me and hears your and my prayers.
*  Beautiful weather.
*  So many more blessings and praises.

Prayer Request:
*  Spoke with a retired NWS friend yesterday and found out his wife, S. F. is going through a second round of breast cancer ... via a skin cancer and also has leukemia.  She is very sick and in desperate need of our prayers.
*  My friend, P. L., as she continues to recuperate from her recent hospitalization.
*  Those who have recently found out about having breast cancer or any other dreadful disease.  Our prayers are so needed.
*  My cough and sinus infection gets cleared up soon.

Thank you for your continued support and prayers.  You all mean so much to me and I am so thankful that I am able to write this blog and share with you not only my journey but ask you to pray for many others.

Psalm 55:22  Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous be shaken.


Blessed and praying blessings on you today.

gkmorrison12@gmail.com

Port Removal and other stuff

I believe I might have had a little anxiety Wednesday morning before getting to go have my port removed.  I seemed to be in a 'down in the dumps' mood and you know ... it was OK that I was there because ... there are so many unknowns when it comes to cancer and treatment.  I allow myself now to feel what I feel.  I allow myself to rest when I need to rest ... cry if I need to cry ... laugh as much as possible ... shrug off the things that in a week won't matter.  Praise the Lord ... He has brought me to this area of life ... the way I should have been living all along.  Oooopsss got a little side tracked there.  I left work at 10:30, got home in time to change clothes before my friend, Bunny, got here to take me to The Center.  When she got here, she got to meet Tootie (she loves animals) ... and then it was off for the new adventure of in office surgery (sort of).  I mean it did include deadening ... a lot of deadening ... and a scalpel that cuts through skin and stitches.  I consider that surgery ... don't you?  I, of course, had to put one of those little red riding hood paper cloak things on.  You know the ones that don't cover too much but just enough and if you try and pull too hard to close it ... it tears.  Dr. B came in and we talked and he listened to me babble about this and that (if you know me, I do that - no comments from my friends and family who know me well).  Dr. B shared that his wife was a four year survivor of breast cancer.  Praise the Lord.  And he shared that she never wore a wig either ... maybe one time.  So I'm not the only one who doesn't like those things.  After I babbled and we talked a few minutes, it was time for me to get in the chair that turned in to a table.  His nurse who has been with Dr. B for 12 1/2 years which was when he got out of his residency and started his practice, is so nice.  She was in the room to assist, a medical student named Sammy, and Bunny.  Bunny was so funny because she positioned herself so she could see the entire procedure.  The nurse ask her if she blood bothered her and she said, "nope".

Dr. B ripped that lovely little cloak from my right shoulder, tucked it in and taped it so he had access to the port.  He proceeded to tell me he was going to deaden the area around my port and it would sting ... and it DID.  <smile>  He got finished with that deadening and started sticking me with a needle and I could feel it.... at this point I shared with him my thyroid biopsy experience with Dr. C when she put two deadening shots in my neck that didn't work because I felt the remaining five sticks when she went after the nodule samples.  Dr. B gave me a little more deadening and Praise the Lord I couldn't feel the needle sticks after that.  He then ask the nurse for another drape.  When he was opening it up, I thought he was going to put it over my face so I couldn't see what was going on.  Am I a nut or what?  This drape had a small hole in it and he positioned it over my port to keep it sterile and began cutting in the old scar where he put it in to take it out.  Then the tugging began ... I mean a lot of tugging.  Dr. B explained to me that he made a smaller incision and was trying to get the port out through the smaller hole.  Whhheewwww I thought the port was grown in to my body and wasn't wanting to come out.  <laugh>  Boy, the things I think about.  Ohhh ... before this started and I was in my babbling state I ask about bleeding to death when the tube part of the port came out of my vina cava ... Dr. B explained to me that it was like taking blood from a vein ... the vina cava would close itself back up.  Whhhewww again ... I was glad to hear that.  Once the port was out ... and let me say this ... there was not much blood at all.  Bunny said she kept looking for blood but there wasn't any.  OK, so once the port was out, Dr. B got this long piece of thread or whatever they call it suture stuff and threaded his needle.  You would have thought he had cut me from side to side with as much suture stuff as there was <smile> ... anyway, he got me sutured (I almost said sewed) up and put three pieces of tape over that and then gauze and more tape on top of that.  I am not supposed to shower until Friday morning ... I did a modified shower last night.  I just don't sleep well if I don't shower ... weird I know.  The table lowered and became a chair again  and I got up and got dressed and away we went.  Dr. B and his nurse are such sweet people ... and they listened to me babble.  <smile>  Dr. B's nurse as she was bringing us back to the procedure room ... said I looked beautiful.  She said not everyone could pull off the bald look but I looked beautiful.  That made my day!

I ask Bunny if she was hungry ... after all my appointment was a noon which is lunch time for me.  We decided on Mexican food so we stopped at Mi Pueblo's out here in our area and had a bite to eat and visited.  She brought me home and we sat in the driveway and visited some more and then I came in and had a nice nap.   I am so thankful the port is out and I pray there is never another time that I will need one.

Above:  My souvenir ... my port.  Dr. B said he liked using
this particular port because the company donates part of the
purchase to breast cancer research.  He said they were a
little more expensive but worth the cost.  

Above:  This is where the port was accessed for all my blood
work.  The center black part is a soft pad that the needle goes in.

Radiation treatment #5 this morning went off without a hitch.  I found out a little more about radiation and fatigue.  I was under the impression that the fatigue comes from going every day Monday - Friday.  Not really!  The fatigue comes from the radiation killing the bad cells and the good cells trying to rebuild and they work very hard and that causes the fatigue.  The radiation tech said that radiation is a lot like taking 10 days of antibiotics.  The antibiotics are killing the bad stuff and the good stuff is trying to keep up and rebuild themselves and after you take them for a while, they can cause fatigue.  The way I'm explaining this doesn't make a lot of sense but this is what was explained to me.  I totally understood it this morning when Vanessa was explaining it and thought I would remember it all ... Can I still claim chemo brain?  Yep, I sure can.  So two more treatments this week ... that makes a total of eight down and only leave 25 to go.  Praise the Lord.

Bunny said she could see my hair coming back in and she said it looks blonde.  Now if you look back at my pictures when I had hair ... my hair color was blonde but that was not my real color.  I know I know you are so surprised ... I was more surprised when I cut all the blonde off to find out what color it really was because I had colored my hair for sooooo long, I forgot.  <laughing out loud>  So we will see what color it comes back ... I say it can come back purple as long as it comes back.  (NOTE:  I really don't want purple hair however purple is a good color on me in clothing.  OK, I'm babbling so I better get.

Praises:
*  The port is out and there was no emergencies.
*  Dr. B and his nurse are so sweet.
*  While I'm tired, I feel good.
*  My grandbabies are on the mend.
*  Bonnie doesn't have that much longer until baby #2 arrives.
*  So so so much more

Prayer Requests:
*  Those recently diagnosed with breast cancer or another dreadful disease.
*  My survivor sisters that I miss so much are doing well with their final treatments.

Blessed and praying blessings for you today!


gkmorrison12@gmail.com

Radiation Round 1 ... Only 32 To Go ...

Radiation started yesterday morning ... four chest x-rays and then the radiation.  Because the machine does both, I didn't know when the x-rays stopped and the radiation began.  But first, I was put on the table and my left chest was exposed.  There were measurements taken, lines drawn, my body adjusted by  the sheet I was laying on, there was music playing and everyone was so nice.  Was I scared ... not scared but apprehensive.  When we do not know what to expect, we can get that way.

To begin ... The music was an Alan Jackson DVD of old gospel hymns.  When I got in the room, the Old Rugged Cross was playing ... I don't remember what was the next song as there was talking and adjusting going on.  I immediately thanked God for the music which seemed to soothe my soul and I knew His presence, as always, was in that room.

Once I was all adjusted, marked and given my instructions to lay still, the techs left the room and shut the door.  Emotion overtook me as I lay there praying, listening to the gospel hymns I love so very much ... and tears began to slip out of my eyes.  I wanted to sob but my instructions were to lay very still so I couldn't sob.  Why ... you may be asking as to the emotion ... I cannot answer that.  I remember a thought that ran through my mind ... how did this happen?  There is not an answer to that question and I didn't park on the question ... instead I praised my Lord as to how far I have come and kept in mind ... only 32 more radiation treatments to go.

While this huge machine was over my body doing I didn't know what ... Alan Jackson started singing ... In the Garden ... the tears really flowed then as I thought about how much my Mother loved that song.  I laid there thinking about her and the radiation treatments she took on her brain and lungs and wondered how she felt many years ago.

When the treatment was complete, the door opens and my two techs taking care of me, Vanessa and Billy, popped back in ... one on each side of the table and offered me their hands and helped me up.  I had to ask when the radiation treatment actually took place and Billy explained that to me so at least I knew when the machine was in the side positions, that was the radiation.  I thanked them all and went to moisturize my chest, get dressed and back to work I went.  The remaining treatments will be at 6:00am and then I will head to work.  I'm praising the Lord ... there are only 32 treatments remaining.

My friend at work, Mike, made me a hummingbird cake (similar to Italian cream cake) and brought it in yesterday as a celebration of my completion of chemo.  Mike had told me about the cake when I was in the office one day (before my hospitalization in January) and it sounded good.  He said he would make me one when I wanted.   I wanted to be able to taste it so we decided when I was finished  with my chemo.  It was so yummy and such a sweet celebration with my co-workers/friends.

The week has gone well at work.  Monday and Tuesday I was really tired when I got home but as the week wore on, I began to fall back in to the morning routine and the days work in the office.  Yes, I'm blessed.

Today I am off and of course have lots to do.  6:00am radiation - 7:00am get Tootie to the groomer - at some point get the oil changed in my Highlander - clean house - laundry (never ending) - make Strolling for Grammy posters for my grand babies strollers for the Race for the Cure walk tomorrow - take a blouse back to Kohl's - go to Kelly Moore and get samples of paint for the exterior of my house and many other things.  I am happy to have the energy and be able to be out and about.

The garden is growing so well.  I need to get updated pictures.  I also need to get MORE potting soil and get some more flower seeds planted in pots for the arbor trellis I put by the patio.  My sister has hired our friend, Justin, to mow and keep our yards for right now.  It was such a blessing to come home on Wednesday and my yard be done ... front and back.  I have also gotten the bid for the gutters and a bid from a painter to paint my house.  I am going to do both ... just not sure of the sequence I should be doing this.  I will figure it out.

I must get going now.  It's 5:00am and I still need to get dressed and be ready to leave for radiation at 5:30am.  I am happy my internet is working and I can update my blog when I want.  Do you remember the business cards I had printed ... the ones with the word HOPE on the front?  I realized yesterday I had put the wrong url for my blog site ... I used www instead of http: ... I just pray that the people I gave the cards to were able to find the blog.  I am having these reprinted today.

Praising the Lord for answer to the unspoken prayer request yesterday.  God is so good.  Thank you Lord.

Blessed and praying blessings for you as you continue to read my story.

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